Pork
07-13-2009, 5:05 PM
In December of last year, I took the next step in my BDSM journey: I accepted my Domme’s collar. However, leading a double life is complicated and stressful so I began seeing a psychiatrist and then a social worker for counseling. Neither one of them understands that the collar I was given is much more than a decoration to me. I view it as a solemn commitment, a symbol of devotion. I promised to obey my Mistress and give up control and she in, turn offered Her sadism, but in a loving way. ;) She promised to to be sadistic, but in an agreed upon manner and only to the extent that I can tolerate, which is not sadism entirely but more of a mutually agreed upon discomfiture.
For me, masochism fosters an escape from the stressful awareness of my ordinary identity and BDSM play is my way of seeking to relieve that stress by accomplishing a temporary escape from my identity. I am a powerful decision maker by day and a submissive servant by night. Sort of a superhero in reverse.
I wear my collar proudly and voluntarily while Miss Laila carries the burden of responsibility. By definition, and by mutual consent, there are no power struggles. But mental health professionals support the classification of sadism and masochism as mental disorders and told me I need lots of therapy to become “normal”. That’s why I stopped going to therapy. I mean let’s be honest. The reason these activities are said to stem from mental disorders is because society at large and people in the shrink profession find them to be distasteful. For a group of professionals who preach about tolerance and diversity, mental health counselors are awfully particular about who they choose to tolerate. :madred:
For me, masochism fosters an escape from the stressful awareness of my ordinary identity and BDSM play is my way of seeking to relieve that stress by accomplishing a temporary escape from my identity. I am a powerful decision maker by day and a submissive servant by night. Sort of a superhero in reverse.
I wear my collar proudly and voluntarily while Miss Laila carries the burden of responsibility. By definition, and by mutual consent, there are no power struggles. But mental health professionals support the classification of sadism and masochism as mental disorders and told me I need lots of therapy to become “normal”. That’s why I stopped going to therapy. I mean let’s be honest. The reason these activities are said to stem from mental disorders is because society at large and people in the shrink profession find them to be distasteful. For a group of professionals who preach about tolerance and diversity, mental health counselors are awfully particular about who they choose to tolerate. :madred: